Junction of my life!

Many things has happen lately…..
After tolerating with data mining job for almost 6 months, I finally decided to end the headache I’m facing day in day out. On 30th March, 2009 I finally tendered my resignation letter.

Do I feel good about it?
Yes indeed I felt much better life has become much brighter, lighter and happier.
With the economic situation not getting any better, I definitely can feel the pinch especially when applying for jobs…

Last night while sleepy I really feel so scare, hopeless and sad because I’ve disappointed mom and dad can't afford to give them great life, a lots of money to spend and even take them for holiday annually…. FYI, till todate they still have no clue that I've tendered my resignation

At this point of time I’m still getting financial assistant from them to undergo my studies……. Less then two weeks before my employment here in Motorola end, I still can’t find a job what’s going to happen to me? Allah Please...:(

To be honest I seem to lose the peace of mind and hearth which I use to have it few months back.

I don’t know who else I can count on for now beside Allah s.w.t sometime I felt that Allah have been very merciful to me and instead of living and dedicating my life to him I do the things He forbids.

Ya Allah engkau berilah diriku kekuatan utk menghadapi dugaan.
Janganla hanyutkan diriku kedalam lautan dosaku dalam keadaan buta.
Hanya Engkau aku harapkan bantuan, ketenangan, dan Syurga Firdaus Mu Ya Allah